Late to this, late to that ... or ... Something else to fill up my day

I have never claimed to be on the forefront of technology, trends or social networking. I was late to MySpace, Facebook, Twitter and Zannel. I started my Blog years after I should have. I managed to avoid Friendster and finally gave in and joined FourSquare.

The one thing I have been kept in the loop about is "web-series". That's primarily due to Michael Flores of Cazador Prouctions, the creator of "Western X" and "A Six Gun For Lobo: Two Kills For A Virgin".

Now since I refuse to have a "traditional" video blog, I will be doing something different. The premise as of today (premise subject to change) real "reality"-esque show in web-series format. I'm not sure how long the "episodes" will be but after the initial one gets on the net I will make sure they will be at least weekly, or damn close to it. They will NOT be edited for content, language or "inappropriateness". They will be edited for time and to fit the week/episodes theme. Certain things I will need to get permission before filming it (that's for legal reasons), so once that's done I will let everyone know how much more this will all expand and cross-over to things.

This whole thing will be shot as everything unfolds. No second takes. No "I sound stupid, don't use that." If it makes it in, it makes it in.

It's going to be nothing fancy. No lighting crew, sound guys, PA's, grips. Just a guy, a camera and maybe some stunts performed by professionals.

What qualifies me to do this and not have it look like complete dog shit??? Well during my time in NY I started off by guest hosting on a show called "Clubland TV". That led to me hosting my own show, "Rock Project X". Once again there was nothing fancy about it. It was a rock video show hosted by me introducing the videos with some bullshit banter from me to the camera. The entire thing was shot inside my car. Am I bragging about this part? No. What I will brag about is that after running 23 episodes over 26 weeks (I let one episode run for a month) I was asked to return for a second season. I didn't return for a second season because I didn't have the time to do the show anymore.

I started that show to prove a point and I did just that, so here is round two.

Once the everything goes live, it will be on YouTube. Since someone is "username squatting" on VonDice, it will be TheVonDice, but that will be announced when it's all said and done.

Timing, it can go fuck itself ... or ... I'm tapping out

Been roughly a month since the last blog entry, so here is a brief recap of the last month before this round of my diatribe.

• Officially back in AZ
• Still not smoking
• Lobo & Western X start shooting in roughly a month.

That's enough of that. Now on to the blog at hand.

In early 2000 someone came into my life that would not only change my life but would be someone that would actually make me hold on to an ideal that is "normal".

So now over the course of the almost eleven years there have been ups, there have been downs, there have been occurrences that haven't made a bit of sense. Every time things seem to make sense it takes another turn and it has yet to turn good.

Now over the last two years every time the timing lined up, something got thrown in the gears. There goes the timing ... AGAIN.

For eleven years I've seen and heard it all about this person, subject and topic. Normally I would think it's me being blind to what is really going on BUT almost everyone else sees it the same way as I have been.

Perception is a very interesting thing. One mans perception of a situation could be the complete opposite of another. (Yes. I know that sentence seems redundant.) Apparently a good portion of us all drank the same Kool-aid cause we're all seeing the same shit, except one. Except the one person that leaves the rest of us scratching our heads in complete confusion.

I've been told lately that if I truly want something that I will try every angle to get what I want without thinking of any consequences. Even though I do disagree with the person that told me that, I DO agree with that persons statement in regards to this particular situation.

Over the last few months I've said to myself that I'm going to be done with the whole situation and scenario, and without fail something brings me back in. Like a true addict, I allow myself to go back to something that will continue to give me the same result.

• Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results. -Rita Mae Brown

(Before anyone jumps my shit and says that quote is not from "Rita Mae Brown" but from Ben Franklin, Albert Einstein, an old Chinese proverb or whoever ... do some research. This is the first known appearance of the quote in print.)

Is it time to realize I'm at the breaking point and to finally tap out? Is it time to end another chapter of my life even though it is SOOOOOO far from how it was written?